Happy Birthday

Why has no one ever said, "have a sad birthday?  Because a BD is supposedly a happy event?  Kids remembering me is a good thing, right? Gratitude for the gifts that I have received - not physical, of course. Hating this lap top which will never let me type anything without a problem. Sure, another year falling apart but holding on to my one and only human love? The worst 2 weeks of my life racked up with eternal sadness, joy and regret? Inscrutable are the ways of the Lord. Amen.