Not going well

I'm not doing well. 15 days in and still had to take aspirin for fever and headache by 3 pm. Lost all patience with daughter and husband. Managed to cry through most of video Mass.  Couldn't be bothered noticing the mild weather and deep green plush grass. Hell  is not populated by kind, unselfish, patient people. He called me rude. I can't apologize for being frustrated in Covid-19 Hell.  I need someone to pull me up and out!